The World 'o' Davey

Yesterday was interesting Corey invited everyone ot his house to retalliate against the evil middle school forces that his sister was summoning for her first teenage year...there wasn't much war so all was good...most of the girls looked at me funny when I told them how great a friend hannah was for sacrificing her arm so I wouldn't bite any of them...I can't imagine why...We watch the two towers...twas very fun and we made forts and had a mass snugglefest and I almost got to sleep...there was too much noise for me to slepe but I was very comfortable until Corey's cousins came in...they caught me off guard and for some reason i got this really bad pain in my chest and a whole bunch of images flashed through my head...Anna and the dragon lady helped make me feel better without totally noticing that there was something really really wrong with me...corey's mom says she doesn't want to adopt me due to the fact that I bite...so I'll have to find another replacement mom...Katie didn't come to the gathering last night...I never found out why...she seems angry at me about something though I don't know what or even if it has anything to do with me *sigh* I can't help but feel bad about this but I don't feel too bad about it...yea that doesn't make sense unless u really think about it...I bet if I used some grammar it would help but I don't care *sticks his tongue out* hmmm...let me think what else happened...oh I disussed some really weird stuff with Anna like how I've got this weird mental problem type thing developing and how friends are the greatest cure for it...I'm really content right now with my life...my friends are great and I'm fighting the good fight at school...there are just some things that I can't control...I have to accept it...but some things shouldn't be accepted...

WOOT! well apparently this guy in my geometry is getting me a young preist and an old preist so he can exorcise me...I told him to bring it on and we'd have the sequel to a great movie (u can guess it can't you?...LILO AND STITCH OF COURSE!)...yesterday was a great day (as are most every friday)...I got some great stuff going on in school and I have mastered the way of the passing slacker...after school the Amoeba decided to go to the last half of a football game (I'm a typical male that doesn't like sports...is that an oxymoron?)...we had some fun there and there was minimal rejoicing...Corey was the hyperest(is that a word?) that I've ever seen him and he glomped Anna to the ground...after the game all of us split up and carpooled to Juniper's house where we intened to watch a movie but decided against it...instead we turned out all the lights and played a game until somethign weird happened and we decided to just have a middle school orgy..."Whats a middle school orgy?" you ask? well it's an orgy (GROUP SEX!) but on a middle school level...so it was a massive amount of people snuggling *cracks up* it was fun I got small intervals of sleep with 3 people and Corey has been dubbed the newest talk-show host, COPRAH! and nothing is his problem...there was a big list of other things he said but I was sleeping through most of them with SB...yep so all was well last night I had oodles of fun except I realized something(actually i realized it again) really bad that kinda scared me but I'm not sure how to deal with it so I'm going to ignore it like I have for the past couple times and hope it doesnt get stronger...I don't wanna deal with problems right now anyways...everyone else seems to have gotten some kind of great happiness out of last night and I don't want to ruin it

Well Anna and I had a chat yesterday that kinda freaked me out a little bit but I think it'll work toward things actually working out in the end. I'm in astronomy again and I'm bored out of my mind. I just took a test in world Civ and I couldn't even answer two of the short answer questions(therefore I have a 90 maximum). *sigh* I miss Katie tons too I haven't been able to see her for more than 2 "good" minutes at a time in what feels like an eternity. Plus with this stupid flu thingy that I've supposedly got I can't do more than a short hug. I really miss her kisses and how warm they make me feel. I've been really cold lately. I've been talking alot with "Boo" *chuckles* I'm not really sure if I can spell her REAL name right so I'll call her that. We've been talking about problems and stuff like that...shes been a big help to my daily stress and its disappearing act. I think I'm feeling better than last time I blogged...things are going better and I'm not AS stressed...I'm hoping today will be a better day by the end......

erg...just erg...I feel like shit right now with my cold/flu thingy that has me at an almost dangerously high fever and my sinus' have the friggen hoover dam in em. On the bright(much sarcasim intended) side I didn't get much homework done yesterday and took tons of zeros today and then got EVEN MORE home work tonight that I didn't get a chance to start on until 10 minutes ago because of rehersal (I made the school play which is gonna kick ass!...unfortunatly i think its gonna be my ass). and then to top it all off...three of my best friends are hurting...I'm not sure whats wrong with most of them...and I"m scared to try and help...last time i tried to help I think I made things a lil bit worse(for proof, read jens blog entry that was up for weeks reminding me of a fialure). I am afraid to tell them I'm worried sometimes too because I know they don't want me to worry and it makes me think that they'll stop telling me things. I'm weird I know but apparently my own problems aren't enough to keep me happy so I am making their problems that I know nothng about into my own problems. I guess thats how people get really screwed up. I have geometry homework that I have no idea on how to do. I also have world civ hw that I CAN'T do since I forgot my book at school. So I'm feeling great right now and I can't wait for tomorrow when I get to feel even better...I may be almost cured tomorrow and be able to hug everyone tomorrow...today i just hugged people that I can't live without hugging...Tomorrow will be better...it has to be

*cracks up* ZACH AND JILL!!!!!! *rolls around laughing until he cries from a pain in his side* WHEW that felt good. Last night I joined the fun at Megans for a very limited attendance gathering. We watched the musical, Chicago. Its not that bad and there were some costumes that I definitly agreed with. It was fun and there was much rejoicing and everyone seemed to have a good time...EVEN JEN! *gasp* hehe I love ya Jen *grin* ok next order of business...my hw...isn't that a fun subject? I have two projects in one class which is crazy if you ask me but they will be easy enough to do and I may find out where some preps live so I can hunt them down later on in life. the first one: a poetry(WOOOOOT!) assignment in which I write a poem and then make a poster to illistrate the poem...I know...I know ya wanna see the poem don't ya?..well here ya go...

When the heart drains empty
And friends turn their back
When I am alone
Where else can I go?

Angels have their heaven,
Demons have a hell,
But when I’m not human,
Where else can I go?

Seraphim’s may help mortals,
And devils can damn the living.
But when I have no purpose
Where else can I go?

The river dries upon my sight
And the flower wilts from my touch.
When nature rejects me
Where else can I go?

In the confines of my world am I welcome?
Can I still roam among the shadows of my past?
Or are they too foreign to accept me?
When my own memory abandons me
Where else can I go?

When I am forgotten I will disappear,
Into the darkness of my present times.
All my problems are followed through
And eventually conquered.
When the world is cruel
The present is where to stay.

YEP probably the best thing I've made in a couple months which is pretty sad since I'm not too content with it. However it is jam packed with imagry so the poster should be almost easy as soon as I get some skill. The next one is a group project that will just be plain fun. Today there tis a massive gathering at Juniper's which will of course be oodles of fun. I think I will end with a quote "*cracks up* ZACH AND JILL!"

Hmmm well yesterday was interesting but nothing of mass importance happened aside from the closest thing Katie and I have ever had to an argument. Yeah, that is definitly important but I'm making it sound much worse than it was. There was a misunderstanding between us but since both of us were able to discuss it calmly we got it all sorted out before much damage was done. The closest thing to damage done was that I spent the afternoon thinking that I had done something to hurt Katie and that was really scaring me. So I was worried a whole bunch and got kinda wired when I found out that it was just a misunderstanding. Today...well today was just...today...I had two tests and a pop quiz...most of the day was spent studying for those or being assigned some massive project...In English, we have begun working on a HUUUUUUUGGGGGEEE group project and guess who gets the leader roll thrust upon them?...ME! and just because of that I don't get to act in the play part that we are doing which sucks like a duck(yes i know ducks can't suck because they have no lips) on the bright side, all I have to do is bark orders and tell people what work needs to be done by when which I am very good at...I'd just rather bark orders and memorize tons of lines so I could dance and sing (and in this case marry my stage mom *vomits*) But I'll be content just as long as everyone in the group does what their told and we get a good grade. I'm soooooooo tired right now I feel like I haven't had a good nights sleep in weeks(1.4something to be exact) so I'm gonna go find out a good way to get hyper so I can try and make it to teh concert tonight! WOOOOOOOOOO

Hmmm well today was...well it was a day...I think...I guess my last entry wasn't the happiest thing in the world but right now I am feeling much better! School today was awful for my nerves but it felt really good to be able to get something done. I had a test in geometry and I didn't fully understand a key formula to it until I asked Megan. She told me something that allowed me to create a totally different way to do the problems and works just as well. I got a 103 on the test as the result (thanx Megan). The bad part about this was that I have geometry 4th period and was stressed all day about it. Added on to that stress was a new assignment from paideia and then there was some new astronomy stuff. School definitly kept me busy so I didn't really have time to think about any of the bad stuff from my last message. Another thing that I'm really disliking about school is that fact that I get to see Katie outside of a classroom for a grand total of 6 minutes daily. We have paideia together so when I don't feel like listening to the teacher all I have to do is look to my left. I can never stop thinking about her and it seems that whenever I do look in her direction she is striking some kind of pose subconsiously. I could write for days describing how she makes me feel everytime she notices me, the way her eyes flash with a realization that shes being watched and then I can practically see the rush of thoughts through her head. But thats as far as I'll go on a public blog about how much I love Vampi-chan. I just got finished reading Anna's blog and I feel really good right now. We both have very similar feelings toward what may be happening: first off the both of us noticed this strange tenseness in the air. secondly both of us have about the same grasp of how big it is going to be. thirdly neither of us know of anything that may be connected to this. and finally we both know deep inside our overworking heads that things will work out. Thank you soooooooo much Anna for being there for me when I'm not sure what is wrong with me and just being able to listen.

Welcome to the world wide Dave *evil laughter* YOUR ATTENTION IS MINE!...anyways this is my blog *insert ooooohhhhhs and ahhhhhhhs and random rooster crowing* This blog was more made for me to get feelings out (yep I'm a guy with feelings...and they say I'm human...HA!). Even though I'm gonna be an idiot an post some really personal stuff up here I am still gonna send a link to this thingy out to ALLLLLLLLL of my friends...and if I have something that is a secret that I don't know is obviously a secret I'll probably post that too...told ya I'm an idiot...well that about does it for the intro so now on to whats been going on in my life...I just started going back to school last week for my sophmore year 'o' high school and so far it flat out sux!...I have one class with my (girl)friend(s) and I spend it working. Over the summer There was wayyyyyy too much chaos in ways that I don't like it(thats makes tons of sense doesn't it?). I'm used to talking people down that have guns to their heads or getting calls in the middle of the night from a friend with a noose around their neck. But nowadays the evils that I have to deal with are so indirect that I'm clueless as to how to deal with them. I've been forced to leave it to the professionals(Jen and Anna) of the field and sit back but I see my friends pain and I can't help. I'm not used to being helpless and I have no idea how to deal with this stuff. The professionals seem to have dealt with all of the immediate problems so some of the stress has died but there is still somethng hanging in the air that no one is talking about. I don't know what it is but I can feel it in the air that there is something I missed. So I'm feeling some form of background stress from the remnants of those problems and then there is a new stress that school has somehow created. Ya see, In middle school I was a badass that didn't give a damn about the world or anyone in it (including myself) so I didn't care if I did things that had bad consequences but now I've got friends and emotions and all kinds of stuff and I have to think everything through so by the time I'm finished with that I don't want to fight or do anything wrong anymore. But this is building up lots of agression and rage. I make those emotions almost as much as I make caring for friends and so I am beginning to reach an unstable level. I have no way to get rid of those emotions anymore because I care about the world now and can't do careless things. I'm scared of what I'll do when I finally do snap under this unknown pressure. Its been years since i've actually let go of all things holding me back and went all out in a physical sense and then I did some very bad things that I don't want to repeat. I was weaker then and I'm unsure as to what my newfound self is capable of. Life is weird in that you can never pause it to figure something out. You always have to keep moving forward so if you don't understand...you get left behind or stay in the dark...and I'm tired of the dark...