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Thursday, April 08, 2004
ABANDON SHIP!
I'm going to kill this blog in exchange for a blurty...the new site link is http://www.blurty.com/users/damienmagnus/
so change all your links and other stuff because this entry is going to be up for a very long time
so change all your links and other stuff because this entry is going to be up for a very long time
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
SHE'S BACK!
ALIANA IS BACK IN TOWN! *end entry*
alright I lied. I'm never going to have an entry that short. However my princess Goop is back in town *waves around flags and has a mini party that ends two seconds later*. Nothing really else to report. Spring break is going well. I've been working on my house with my dad(who has 2 weeks off from work) and I've discovered that he is a lot more of an intellectual than he lets the world know...just working with him I've picked up all kinds of physics lessons and the such. ok I think this entry is up to par with length so I'm gonna stop here.
COMMENTS ARE GOOD FOR THE SOUL!(mele gratse for the comments from last entry!)
alright I lied. I'm never going to have an entry that short. However my princess Goop is back in town *waves around flags and has a mini party that ends two seconds later*. Nothing really else to report. Spring break is going well. I've been working on my house with my dad(who has 2 weeks off from work) and I've discovered that he is a lot more of an intellectual than he lets the world know...just working with him I've picked up all kinds of physics lessons and the such. ok I think this entry is up to par with length so I'm gonna stop here.
COMMENTS ARE GOOD FOR THE SOUL!(mele gratse for the comments from last entry!)
Sunday, April 04, 2004
red lines and pearl background
I haven't updated in forever have I? ALRIGHTY! at the demand of Anna the blog nazi I've 'decided' to blog. Nothing much happened for the rest of the week I don't think...Ana left for Georgia with the chorus on friday so I haven't really had a chance to do anything wth her *sad puppy face* but yesterday was still sooooo cooool!
one word...RENFAIRE!(supposed to be two I know) We walked around and saw weapons(I would've bought some but the peoples were all "ARG YOU MUST BE THIS TALL or 18") There were loads of cools clothes and costumes there. I wanted to get chainmail and a tunic but the green paper was lacking. I was wayyyyy too much of a flirt all day I think...this lady was walking around as the queen and she had a whole party with her of guards and the royal family...I stopped one of her ladies and was talking with them until she realized she didn't see where the queen had gone (oops 0:-). We ate foods and stoof...but the very bestest part of the day was that...well...ya see...umm...*explodes* FLOOFY WAS THERE!...with her best friend Kayla(sp) who was soooo wicked awesome...there's no one like those two I'm gonna have to kidnap them when I get my lisence. We wandered around for awhile and had many group hugs and then I got a gigantic strawberry drink that had a HUGE strawberry in it and whipped cream...it took awhile to make so the group had congrigated away from me and when I came back all the girls got a lick of cream *again with the angel face* We managed to plan to go bowling at 7 after the faire and floof/kayla managed to come too!...so all the people that didn't come to the faire got to come to see floof at the bolwing action... I also discovered that I kick ass at air hockey.......I could try to describe all the stuff we did but it'd be too hard...just know that we had an absolutly wonderful time being crazy in every way (including sexually?...maybe?)...
...and now that part that you know had to be connected to all this good stuff...my depressing lesson learned from all this.......I hate being alone...yep...that's it...ok well theres more to it than that...I got home and I realized I didn't want that night to be over...seriously...I didn't want to move from those beautiful people...people I can glomp...people that randomly steal my wallet but I can trust to not take anything(cept maybe a hottopic card katie!)...people I can just randomly pull into a tight hug and rock back and forth to the unsung melody that rings in our souls...it's that song that brought us together and holds us there but I can't hold onto that phantom sound and as it fades, so do the people, and so does my happiness...when I got home last night I didn't go inside for a half hour and then I finally went to my room, stripped, and crawled into bed...I didn't sleep till 3ish...why? because I was alone.....whoever made that saying "it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." should've been shot immeadiatly after saying that...try having the greatest feeling in the world and then having it taken away...see how easy it is to fall back into your old world...IT ISN'T!...I eventually curled up into a ball and just wished for someone to hold me...I just can't stand being given almost every person I love and then an hour later be alone...it hurts and so I don't like being alone...
...Shakespeare has a quote that mentions love being the true trickster and there is no evil but love...which is almost true...love is what creates this wonderful feeling and then takes it away...we blame something else but it is our love for each other that makes us feel lonely...
I HOPE THIS ENTRY PROVOKED SOME KIND OF COMMENTS...HINT HINT!
one word...RENFAIRE!(supposed to be two I know) We walked around and saw weapons(I would've bought some but the peoples were all "ARG YOU MUST BE THIS TALL or 18") There were loads of cools clothes and costumes there. I wanted to get chainmail and a tunic but the green paper was lacking. I was wayyyyy too much of a flirt all day I think...this lady was walking around as the queen and she had a whole party with her of guards and the royal family...I stopped one of her ladies and was talking with them until she realized she didn't see where the queen had gone (oops 0:-). We ate foods and stoof...but the very bestest part of the day was that...well...ya see...umm...*explodes* FLOOFY WAS THERE!...with her best friend Kayla(sp) who was soooo wicked awesome...there's no one like those two I'm gonna have to kidnap them when I get my lisence. We wandered around for awhile and had many group hugs and then I got a gigantic strawberry drink that had a HUGE strawberry in it and whipped cream...it took awhile to make so the group had congrigated away from me and when I came back all the girls got a lick of cream *again with the angel face* We managed to plan to go bowling at 7 after the faire and floof/kayla managed to come too!...so all the people that didn't come to the faire got to come to see floof at the bolwing action... I also discovered that I kick ass at air hockey.......I could try to describe all the stuff we did but it'd be too hard...just know that we had an absolutly wonderful time being crazy in every way (including sexually?...maybe?)...
...and now that part that you know had to be connected to all this good stuff...my depressing lesson learned from all this.......I hate being alone...yep...that's it...ok well theres more to it than that...I got home and I realized I didn't want that night to be over...seriously...I didn't want to move from those beautiful people...people I can glomp...people that randomly steal my wallet but I can trust to not take anything(cept maybe a hottopic card katie!)...people I can just randomly pull into a tight hug and rock back and forth to the unsung melody that rings in our souls...it's that song that brought us together and holds us there but I can't hold onto that phantom sound and as it fades, so do the people, and so does my happiness...when I got home last night I didn't go inside for a half hour and then I finally went to my room, stripped, and crawled into bed...I didn't sleep till 3ish...why? because I was alone.....whoever made that saying "it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." should've been shot immeadiatly after saying that...try having the greatest feeling in the world and then having it taken away...see how easy it is to fall back into your old world...IT ISN'T!...I eventually curled up into a ball and just wished for someone to hold me...I just can't stand being given almost every person I love and then an hour later be alone...it hurts and so I don't like being alone...
...Shakespeare has a quote that mentions love being the true trickster and there is no evil but love...which is almost true...love is what creates this wonderful feeling and then takes it away...we blame something else but it is our love for each other that makes us feel lonely...
I HOPE THIS ENTRY PROVOKED SOME KIND OF COMMENTS...HINT HINT!
